Shopping

You know me and my "endeavours." I hat looking for clothes online cause all the models are skinny and shit. Fuck them for being skinny XP Nah but over the summer i really want to lose weight so that way when I come back for senior year people will be like "Oh shit, Derrick looks awesome" and I will be like "Fuck yeah!" LOL

I think me and Christie should hit up a few thrift stores to get some spring clothes. I'm feeling kinda retro-oldish with like a mix of new for the style if I don't sound retarded by saying that. Second hand rose and all the other places sound good? ^__^

As a last thought, I really should watch what I eat, I feel bad putting all of this up because I feel like I'm just complaining, but I'm not meaning to.

Drawing

how I feel

Honestly

I totally forgot I even had a blogger, this is a major 365 fail. Anywho, I don't wanna go to school--just wanted to put that out there.

I feel so jumbled up inside. I kinda started a journal, but then I stopped. I'm really pissed at my mom cause she stole it and it had my inner-most thoughts. Im so secrative, I try to cover everything up. I guies the true me, because I'm not sure I really like who I am. They say be youself, but im so amorphic I don't know who I am. One of my favorite quotes is actually form bill cosby, but it aplies directly to me, "I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody."













I'm going to fail life.

Skål

Here's to...

the weird
the free-thinkers
the individuals
the queer
the gay
the heterosexual
the ignorant
the disabled
the insane
the sane
the frugal
the poor
the paupers
the lepers
the vegans
the freegans
the omnivores
the "carnivores"
the saints
the satanist
the beautiful
the liberal
the smart
the dumb
the hard-workers
the revolutionaries
the pacifists
the religious
the atheists
the multicultural
the brave
the weak
the fearful


Raise up your glasses, drink be merry, work together--or not,
It doesn't matter in the end we all rot.
So give it up, our final salute. For generations to live, we must dilute.
I apologize my brothers, oh my brothers, for we are all to be smothered...
We walk a thin line, but a twine. For O, I see, I see, the fates, three.
I fear it is the end, so watch out my friend.
If you're reading these words, they're soon to be eaten.
In this worlds eyes, we are nothing but cretin.
Drink up my brothers, and sisters alike. I wish you all will live a good life.
I have one word, and its close to my soul, I wish you all mirth, so bottoms up,
Skål.

4.00

Right now I have a 3.70, thats coll and all but I would love to have a 4.00 :D and if I get straight A's this semester I will :DDDD I'm going to try my best but I seriously have Junioritis(if there is junioritis?)
On the topic of new semester, min sucks, my schedual is as follows:
AP World History=great fun class, lotta work :\
Spanish 4= lot more work than Spanish 3, not as fun, hardly any friends
English 3= Ms. Sebly is hilarious, class is full of dicks(they know how to put the ASS in clASS)-- no friends
Calc.= Teacher super nice, grades homework on correctness -__- lot of fucking work

As comparde to last semester where I had like no work. I need to get into school gear. I don't wanna. I already want school to end, this semester sucks. I miss Christie,Gregory, Michelley, Danielle, Bean, Dr.Wolff, and Mr.McKim. we need to swap semesters.

Life sucks right now, I just wanna crawl in a hole. No quiero vivir.

Life

This is my life, me watching the shit that could destroy me slowly come at me, hopefully I will jump high enough, and soon enough not to get hit and ghetto stomp my problems away.

So this is going to be a very broad blog today cause, well I haven't blogged in a while.

Future[farther than a month away] (infinitive + é,ás,á,emos,án):
IUP is a college, that's all I know about it. I hope I will want to go there (need to research it but my Internet has been wonky) cause if I do me and Kim are going to live in a townhouse together, and it will be really awesome, we already found a community with REALLY CHEAP ones, $345 for two people, so only $172.something per each of us :D

Near Future[in a weeks time](voy,vas,va,vamos,van, + a + infinitive):
I have a DBQ to do tomorrow and I'm nervous, but Kerr graded my last DBQ; I got a 6 out of 9, and he says depending on the grader it could be an 8! :D

Past{preterite}[a past completed action] (AR-é,aste,ó,amos,aron ER/IR-í,iste,ió,imos,ieron)
I took a Calc. test and I got a %100 :D

Past{imperfect}[a past continued action] (AR-aba,abas,aba,abamos,aban ER/IR-ía,ías,ía,íamos,ían)
I have been going to sleep when I get home and taking naps until 5 and going to bed at 2, yet in school I have never felt more awake. cool I guess? Also I have had a lot more work this week than I have had last semester :\


SPANISH=FUN

Suicide :(

So I know suicide is not a funny topic but I was bored/feeling really shitty today so I went to mystery google. I typed in "I want to kill myself :|" and I got back, in one try, "GREAT IDEA!" That made me sad. I know this is a really shitty blog post but I just wanted to share that.

P.S. My monologue for Speech class is Charlie's monologue from "You're a good man Charlie Brown" it is called "Nothing spoils the taste of peanut butter like unrequited love"

Lazy?

I can't believe I missed two blogs. Not much has happened these past two days however. Tuesday I can hardly remember... we had a 90 minute delay, but I guess it is better than nothing. Still sucks :\ Me and Christie have decided -__- = story of our lives. I swear ughh. Any whozzle (I adopted that from Kim and Chris) then tuesday night I did stuff? And today (technically yesterday, but its not the next day to me untill I go to sleep) was a lazy Wenesday. We hardly did anything in school. All I do in physics is play mash. I love making really elaborate ones, its really fun, Shelly ended up with a leg-less cat :)

I went over Devan's today and now I officaly have 3 little sisters and a little brother, plus an older sister too. I love the Merkel Residence, it is always fun when I go over there. We (Kim, Devan and I) were studing for Spanish finals x__x Wish us luck! (Espera que tengamos buena suerte! (I think thats right))

I'll post twice tomorrow to make up for a lack of posts. I want to have 365 by next year so i gotsta keep up. Night *3*

P.S. The band "Florence and the Machine" REALLY AWESOME you can listen to their songs on Youtube. My favorites are "The Bird Song", "Hurricane Drunk", "Swimming", "Falling","I'm Not Calling You a Liar" (Christie this is your song), "Kiss With a Fist", and "Drumming Song" = Amazing song and music video. Basically abything they sing. Those are ones that just stick out in my head...
What are you still reading this for GO!

SNOW

We haven't gotten this much snow in a while in Maryland, at least since I can remember. Anyway I'm really optimistic when it comes to snow and snow days, so I'm really hoping (because it is snowing right now) for a snow day tomorrow. That would be really awesome. Idk. Short blog today. :)

P.S. I love those Japanese Pagoda lantern things...

Shopping

Today I went shopping and it was really fun. I'm glad we went when we did cause we took like 4 hours or whatever, but I really don't care. I'm kinda upset about it though, not because I bought one thing, but Christie felt bad cause I didn't get anything, no matter how much i told her it didn't matter. She is a good friend, that's why I love hur.

So I pulled out some old pants that I used to wear but don't anymore cause somebody I know said that they weren't good looking on me er whatever. Idk I REALLY am self-conscious so when they said I didn't look good I really took it to heart. That makes me mad, I need to man up I guess. I think everyone is self-conscious however... Grrrrrkasdf;lkjsadf;kljcm;df frustration. Plus it doesn't help I do need to work out and do stuff. I just wish I had a buddy to do so with, like in health class I legit lost weight with Carrie, but then I stopped working out now I gained it all back and with avengance. I can't believe I'm saying this but I have just exceeded 200 lbs. for the first time in my life :\ There is nobody really to blame but my self though... Fa'sisdfjjsjdclle;k Night it is uber late and I'm tired :\ I need to go to sleep earlier.

P.S?

Christie, I think you could definitely rock that black outfit, I wanna know how she makes her eyes look so damn big, and those heels look awesome too Christie.... just saying

FAIL

T__T don't even look at my blog anymore. There is no point to even living, I lied. I can't believe I already missed a post. If it counts I don't consider it the next day till I go to sleep, which I haven't done yet.

So I'm really looking forward to getting new clothes. I am SUPPOSED TO be shopping with Christie today/tomorrow. I really hope we do, this is a little awkward saying this cause Christie is my only follower but, I really like spending time with her. Shes funny, cool, style-ish, and fun stuff. Plus I think my wardrobe could definitely benefit if she helped me get some new clothes. Hopefully she didn't forget :\ We were supposed to go see Avatar but that never happened so I'm not really sure about these plans..... Well IDK time will tell. I'm sorry I fudged up guys, oh well what can you say ("fuck you!" as said by you guys). Night *3*

Last Minute

Looks like something Alton John would ride through the Everglades in.

So if you haven't noticed yet I'm trying to blog every day. This is really challenging cause I don't always have ideas for these post. I went out for sushi tonight and got home. I get on the laptop and my heart sinks. My first thought was "Oh Shit." I thought it was too late. But currently it is 11:17 so I should finish this in time to have my blog post up before 12:00 unless the Internet stops working O_o Lets hope that doesn't happen, well actually if your reading this it most likely didn't happen. Ah oh-well.

TIME PARADOX Jesus Christ time travel confuses the SHIT out of me. If you go back in time to fix something then you will end up not going back in time and then you wont go back in time so the stuff will happen so you will go back in time. UGH.

Sleep

I apparently can't manage mine well... I am always falling asleep. I was just typing at the laptop a blog post, but I fell asleep. I hate not sleeping and being tired sucks. FML

Japan

So there is the website that i love to go to. It is Japandemic. It can be a little pervy or gross but its really awesome. He calls it a "Graphic Novel" however its more like a picture blog. This website makes me want to live in Japan so bad. They way he puts it where he lives it is soooo nice and cool compared to where I live, damn Kent Island. If there was only one place I could ever go, I now think it would be Japan, however I would have to learn the language. The culture is so cool, and I think the Shinto Shrines and Temples are Fascinating. I already love Nigiri and apparently it is the "meat and beans of Japan." And coming to think of it I've always wanted to be a teacher and I do enjoy the English language... Teacher in Japan? I don't know I will have to see things out. Speaking of future life, I don't know what I want to do in college T__T I'm certain I'll find out what I want to do... eventually.

P.S. there was a diffrent picture I wanted to use but I could'nt get it to work so here is a link (plus there are some other really cool pictures on this site): link:)

Names...

...are the most stressful thing I can think of. They instantly label you, or whatever receives said name. In New Guinea if you have a pet, name it or else it is up for grabs to be on the dinner table. -- My mind is empty; this is all you get from my first blog post.

P.S. Sike I lied. I love using this font. It makes me think of a typewriter.