Shopping

You know me and my "endeavours." I hat looking for clothes online cause all the models are skinny and shit. Fuck them for being skinny XP Nah but over the summer i really want to lose weight so that way when I come back for senior year people will be like "Oh shit, Derrick looks awesome" and I will be like "Fuck yeah!" LOL

I think me and Christie should hit up a few thrift stores to get some spring clothes. I'm feeling kinda retro-oldish with like a mix of new for the style if I don't sound retarded by saying that. Second hand rose and all the other places sound good? ^__^

As a last thought, I really should watch what I eat, I feel bad putting all of this up because I feel like I'm just complaining, but I'm not meaning to.

Drawing

how I feel

Honestly

I totally forgot I even had a blogger, this is a major 365 fail. Anywho, I don't wanna go to school--just wanted to put that out there.

I feel so jumbled up inside. I kinda started a journal, but then I stopped. I'm really pissed at my mom cause she stole it and it had my inner-most thoughts. Im so secrative, I try to cover everything up. I guies the true me, because I'm not sure I really like who I am. They say be youself, but im so amorphic I don't know who I am. One of my favorite quotes is actually form bill cosby, but it aplies directly to me, "I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody."













I'm going to fail life.

Skål

Here's to...

the weird
the free-thinkers
the individuals
the queer
the gay
the heterosexual
the ignorant
the disabled
the insane
the sane
the frugal
the poor
the paupers
the lepers
the vegans
the freegans
the omnivores
the "carnivores"
the saints
the satanist
the beautiful
the liberal
the smart
the dumb
the hard-workers
the revolutionaries
the pacifists
the religious
the atheists
the multicultural
the brave
the weak
the fearful


Raise up your glasses, drink be merry, work together--or not,
It doesn't matter in the end we all rot.
So give it up, our final salute. For generations to live, we must dilute.
I apologize my brothers, oh my brothers, for we are all to be smothered...
We walk a thin line, but a twine. For O, I see, I see, the fates, three.
I fear it is the end, so watch out my friend.
If you're reading these words, they're soon to be eaten.
In this worlds eyes, we are nothing but cretin.
Drink up my brothers, and sisters alike. I wish you all will live a good life.
I have one word, and its close to my soul, I wish you all mirth, so bottoms up,
Skål.

4.00

Right now I have a 3.70, thats coll and all but I would love to have a 4.00 :D and if I get straight A's this semester I will :DDDD I'm going to try my best but I seriously have Junioritis(if there is junioritis?)
On the topic of new semester, min sucks, my schedual is as follows:
AP World History=great fun class, lotta work :\
Spanish 4= lot more work than Spanish 3, not as fun, hardly any friends
English 3= Ms. Sebly is hilarious, class is full of dicks(they know how to put the ASS in clASS)-- no friends
Calc.= Teacher super nice, grades homework on correctness -__- lot of fucking work

As comparde to last semester where I had like no work. I need to get into school gear. I don't wanna. I already want school to end, this semester sucks. I miss Christie,Gregory, Michelley, Danielle, Bean, Dr.Wolff, and Mr.McKim. we need to swap semesters.

Life sucks right now, I just wanna crawl in a hole. No quiero vivir.

Life

This is my life, me watching the shit that could destroy me slowly come at me, hopefully I will jump high enough, and soon enough not to get hit and ghetto stomp my problems away.

So this is going to be a very broad blog today cause, well I haven't blogged in a while.

Future[farther than a month away] (infinitive + é,ás,á,emos,án):
IUP is a college, that's all I know about it. I hope I will want to go there (need to research it but my Internet has been wonky) cause if I do me and Kim are going to live in a townhouse together, and it will be really awesome, we already found a community with REALLY CHEAP ones, $345 for two people, so only $172.something per each of us :D

Near Future[in a weeks time](voy,vas,va,vamos,van, + a + infinitive):
I have a DBQ to do tomorrow and I'm nervous, but Kerr graded my last DBQ; I got a 6 out of 9, and he says depending on the grader it could be an 8! :D

Past{preterite}[a past completed action] (AR-é,aste,ó,amos,aron ER/IR-í,iste,ió,imos,ieron)
I took a Calc. test and I got a %100 :D

Past{imperfect}[a past continued action] (AR-aba,abas,aba,abamos,aban ER/IR-ía,ías,ía,íamos,ían)
I have been going to sleep when I get home and taking naps until 5 and going to bed at 2, yet in school I have never felt more awake. cool I guess? Also I have had a lot more work this week than I have had last semester :\


SPANISH=FUN

Suicide :(

So I know suicide is not a funny topic but I was bored/feeling really shitty today so I went to mystery google. I typed in "I want to kill myself :|" and I got back, in one try, "GREAT IDEA!" That made me sad. I know this is a really shitty blog post but I just wanted to share that.

P.S. My monologue for Speech class is Charlie's monologue from "You're a good man Charlie Brown" it is called "Nothing spoils the taste of peanut butter like unrequited love"